December is a festive month for sure, everyone is having party, my mom has become a Santa Claus who allowed me to buy what I want, instead of what I need. But after what I've been through this year, I don't feel like I'm having fun or celebrating anything. This year is one of my hardest year. I've been struggling all the time, just not to be at the bottom, just to pass day after day. I can't count how many sleepless nights, how many moments when I was caught up with fear, anxious feeling. Worried about the future, whether I will pass or not. Still I'm grateful because I managed to be here now, safely (thankfully I passed this semester, so I'm heading my final project). Rather than become a feminine lady, I think I have become more like thick skinned, though guy. When on the other side I was battling with feeling of lost. I know everything changes for the better, still it's hard to be accepted. It needs a lot of strength to keep myself sane, stable, calm, and smiling. Pretend like I'm fine when I'm really anxious and not sure inside. Instead of having celebration or such, I really want to thank everyone who's made me come this far. Everyone who's fought with me, helped me when I was panic, everyone who's saved me in every way. Sincerely, thank you.

Last week I had a trip to Taman Bunga Nusantara with my family. Very excited to see so many flowers! It's been a long time since I could fulfill my desire to capture, something that I really love to do. I was having fun ^^

June is a special month of the year for me as I always wish to go back to June. Whether it's because of my birthday, or holiday when all exciting things happens! This is gonna be quite long post. There are a lot of things I haven't written, especially this week I started to see and feel my favorite things again.

#1. I'm not really into green tea, but decided to try this Japanese green tea latte from esprecielo. It's very calming. Oh it's been a long time since I could enjoy my morning.

#2. My 21st birthday. A lot of things happened and suddenly I'm 21 already!

#3. Past months was a long, torturing, and hard journey. My feelings was numb and I didn't even recognize my life anymore. It's a relieve that I pass at the end, but somehow there's something that's missing from my life after all that experience. But I must say thank you to all the people that helped me during that period, I really feel I owe so much to them.

#4. Lately my mom busy shopped for our new apartment and she bought so much things from Ikea.

#5. I ate a lot of good food these days. Well, good food makes me happy! From french fries, Mille Crepes, Red Velvet cake (dominated by desserts of course). Didn't get chances to capture all of them, but last time, I went to my favorite pizza restaurant. Still think they have the best pizza and pasta in town. They are so yummmm :9.

Now I'm starting my internship for a month. I made it a point to swim as far as I can (read my last post here).

Love, S